Over the past two months I have been working on a new project. “Hallucinations Of Our Imagination” a series of photographs that tackles the subject of mental health, specifically Bipolar disorder. Bipolar disorder is a mood disorder where a person’s emotions are often uncontrollably and violently swinging typically between Mania and Depression. Even though it is primarily a mood disorder effecting the serotonin and dopamine levels in our brain. Because of these chemicals the possibility of psychosis (visual and auditory Hallucinations) is very strong and actually common.
All of this came about shortly after my journey into psychosis and seeking help. After my own diagnosis I saw an old friend and had shared what I had been through. She in turn opened up to me about her own battle with Bipolar disorder. That’s all it took for myself and RAE OBSIDIAN (local renaissance woman: painter, spoken word artist, photographer, model, nomad) (https://www.facebook.com/raeobsidian/) to team up for this project. These photographs represent not only our journey but the multitude of people we have interviewed who have been effected by Bipolar disorder.
Here are the first two finished photographs:
Through comparing notes with other people the most common onset of a severe mood swing comparable to standing on the shore of the beach. It comes in waves, you feel it a little each day. One wave today, two tomorrow, three the next. Nothing you can do can stop the onset, I often find myself trying to mentally prepare, but its all for nothing.
“Darkness Washing Over A Man”
Unfortunately the people who are effected the most by the mood swings are the people around us. Our wives, husbands, children, friends. They never know who is going to be there that day, will it be Jeckle or will it by Hyde?
“A Man Spreading Darkness To A Woman”